I am always amazed at what I will do knowing full well the consequences. I will let my gas tank get so low that every time I turn the car on I feel like it is an answer to prayer. I will leave the house without a jacket knowing later I will be cold. I will stay up late reading a good book knowing 5:45 a.m. is going to feel more like 3 a.m. Yet I do it anyway. I suppose on the same vein it should not surprise me when people around me do things, relational things, that they already know will hurt them later.
Almost more intriguing is the process we use to justify the action that results in pain. If I wait the cost of gas will go down. Oh, it will get warmer as the sun comes up, I can sleep tomorrow afternoon. He is really good to me, he will change, but he is so responsible, he has a good job, or he is a REALLY nice guy. All great things but what is saving 5 cents per gallon of gas going to do when I am stranded on the highway? Or how is that sweatshirt going to help when the sun raised the temp to a whamping 42 degrees? It is always safer to go with what you know. There are facts and examples to learn from. Why do we avoid protection? Why do we repel against what we know to be right at true?
Gods ways are perfect and in place to make our life better. It will not be perfect or trouble free but this is what His word tells us: Better a dry crust with peace and quiet than a house full of feasting, with strife. Proverbs 17:1
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
I am hoping to manipulate the system of commission earners at Lifetime fitness for a $0 re-enrollment fee. It has taken me about three weeks to even get my health insurance numbers so I am greatful at least that I have the choice of a health club.
I am meeting up with an old friend tonight. I am really excited because she has had a lot happen in her life lately. I always like to catch up with people but then find it somewhat difficult to continue meeting since there is so much happening in life. It's like current relationships are either long time friends who you can talk to once every three months and no time has passed or there are the people that you work with or are in groups with that you have to see every week at a programed time and place.
Before I left Indonesia when thinking about life back in America I wanted to make sure that my schedule did not fill up every night. My plan was to have one night where I participated in something that was for me. Then one night could be dedicated to something I did for other people. However, I am thinking about a freelance job that would be two nights a week and every weekend. It is for a basketball season. Then I am thinking about being the faculty adviser to our school's Deaf Club and that is Wednesdays. So it would be a full week, every week, if I decided to do these things. However, I think this basketball gig could be a good way to get a new computer. We'll see if it all works out. Truth is I need to follow up on some of that stuff. I also have thought about a group called Toastmasters. I found out about it a few weeks ago and then went to my first meeting last week. It seems like a great tool to learn how to be an affective public speaker. I know I can talk in front of people but if I think I will be doing more of that I should really hone those skills so that I can speak for longer periods of time. That club is every other Tuesday. Wow, when will I fit in time to go work out even if I can maneuver the $0 re-enrollment fee.
One other thing that I have been thinking about is "single groups." Usually found in churches or other religious establishments and usually full of nerds. How is that? Where are all the normal single people? I mean the ones that are not divorced, do not have kids, are socially acceptable, have a good job, and a decent car. People that are motivated and are Christians. Are there such people in the world? Anyone know that answer to this question?? Please let me know if you have found such a tribe.
I am meeting up with an old friend tonight. I am really excited because she has had a lot happen in her life lately. I always like to catch up with people but then find it somewhat difficult to continue meeting since there is so much happening in life. It's like current relationships are either long time friends who you can talk to once every three months and no time has passed or there are the people that you work with or are in groups with that you have to see every week at a programed time and place.
Before I left Indonesia when thinking about life back in America I wanted to make sure that my schedule did not fill up every night. My plan was to have one night where I participated in something that was for me. Then one night could be dedicated to something I did for other people. However, I am thinking about a freelance job that would be two nights a week and every weekend. It is for a basketball season. Then I am thinking about being the faculty adviser to our school's Deaf Club and that is Wednesdays. So it would be a full week, every week, if I decided to do these things. However, I think this basketball gig could be a good way to get a new computer. We'll see if it all works out. Truth is I need to follow up on some of that stuff. I also have thought about a group called Toastmasters. I found out about it a few weeks ago and then went to my first meeting last week. It seems like a great tool to learn how to be an affective public speaker. I know I can talk in front of people but if I think I will be doing more of that I should really hone those skills so that I can speak for longer periods of time. That club is every other Tuesday. Wow, when will I fit in time to go work out even if I can maneuver the $0 re-enrollment fee.
One other thing that I have been thinking about is "single groups." Usually found in churches or other religious establishments and usually full of nerds. How is that? Where are all the normal single people? I mean the ones that are not divorced, do not have kids, are socially acceptable, have a good job, and a decent car. People that are motivated and are Christians. Are there such people in the world? Anyone know that answer to this question?? Please let me know if you have found such a tribe.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Of Kari.
As for you all. I know as you read this you will think to yourselves, "who the heck is this person?" However, you will soon discover that I am an outgoing non-speller who likes to share quarky ideas and thoughts that may or most often do not follow the status quo. I am glad that you have decided to join me on the journey some call life others call it hell on earth. Most often for me it feels like a trip to cazy's house and back but whatever it ends up being on any given day I am still praising God that I have breath in my lungs and blood in my veins. Welcome to my blog and feel free to spread it around a bit.
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