I was reflecting on the whole Easter thing and how it effected my life. I thought about how I allow myself to live in the "poor me" rhelm so often. I compare myself to other people and they have a pretty tough life so then I chastise myself for even thinking that my life sucks. It's true I have a choice, this isn't new to any of us, but I can live in the hopelessness of the Friday. When our savior, the one we have given up everything to follow is dead and it seems that all our excitement and fervor are in vain. We can choose to live in that moment OR we can live in the Sunday when the ladies arrived at the tomb and saw the big beautiful angelic beings saying, "Why do you search for the living among the dead." We have no idea, like them, what the future holds but we know Christ is not dead, then as now. We know that something big is going to happen and really all we need to do is be faithful to what we know is true. Choosing to live in the hope of Sunday.
I was also listening to a sermon on the subject of God's favor towards us. We can't escape it you know? God loves us no matter what. I do believe that we can remove ourselves from his favor though. Like an umbrella, we can walk out from under it but that again is our choice. I have a huge umbrella meant for golfers I think. I bought the umbrella one day when I was going to take my nieces to a park with the dog and knew that the thing was big enough for us three girls. Samara, however, wanted to run with Oliver and so she did. No problem but then when we got in the car she was cold, shivering, wet, and miserable. She had fun for a while playing with the dog but then the consequences of that action outlasted the fun. I think it is similar to when I make the call to an old boyfriend because I want to go out or when I am sitting here eating white cheddar cheeto puffs. The wet, soggy, consequences are miserable compared to the fun it was. I have decided that not only do I want to stay in the safe, warm, favor of God but I also want to make the choice to live in the Sunday. It is not faking the fact that all is good it is just choosing to have a good attitude despite the circumstances.
What do you think? Live in the Friday or the Sunday?
Do you want Favor or the Feeling?
I'm gonna go with Sunday Favor.
I'll have to remind myself that daily for awhile but I hope that it makes pathways in my brain so it eventually comes natural.
Blessings to you,
Kari
