Boys

So here is a different take on the whole issue of boys. God has graciously given me an object on whom to cast my affections, for the time being. I thought that a 31 year old would be too old for infatuation but alas I was wrong, Way wrong. Infatuation makes you feel things that are probably not true, think things that are probably not true, hope for things that are a bit inappropriate, etc.

My thing is that I can not wait to talk to this guy. CAN’T WAIT. All the time I am checking my phone for a SMS or some other form of communication that maybe I missed. Also I love to listen to his voice, to my credit it is low and great, preferably at the beginning of the day and at the end and maybe in the middle too. Yeah I know, I got it bad.

It got me thinking about my first love, Jesus. Who gave everything He had because of His love for me. He wants communion with me, and wants to talk and hang out. He wants to experience real life with me and be with me every moment of every day. He loves me so much that He is always ready to listen when I want to talk, about anything. Do I feel the same toward Him???? If I do, I do not show it very well. Do I wake up with Him on my mind? Do I go to bed thinking about a way to spend time with him in the next few days? Do I constantly check back to see what He thinks or if He has an opinion on the things that are important to me? Do I make sure there is some form of communication everyday with him? I am sad to say that I don’t. I wish I did. I hate that I am so dependent on things that are tangible. Things that I can “see, touch, taste or feel.” The Bible says in two Corinthians 4:18; “There is far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can’t see now will last forever.” The Message. I mean really, by now I should know not to trust my senses. What is up with me and how do I change the way I am? Well God made me this way and he knows the struggles that I have. He will make a way where there seems to be no way, right? This is how I see it. If I make sure I talk to HIM before I talk to him. And continually bring the relationship before God for approval and still get all gitty when he calls, God knows and that is how he meant it to be. He gave us the great ‘just met’ feelings, and that’s what makes it fun. He knows what this is all about and how long it will last and all the rest of the stuff I do not have figured out yet. He bestows on us grace that is so far beyond what we, well what I deserve!

One last thing; The guy is a vegan and all the boys in my family are out hunting this weekend . . . Any thoughts?????